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yadi ye hath us samay ruk jate toh shayad mai aajis halat me nahi hota ki roj ib ya kingfisher ki botal kholu....khair mere hath uske pyare se hath se jakar mil gaye.....hiiii i am SHWETA..class tab tak start chuki thi...main bahar hi khada raha,mai chahta tha ki shweta pahle jaye ,..lekin aisa hua nahi.usne achanak hi mujhe class ke andar dhakel diya...main girne wala tha ,par maine apne aap ko sambhal liya,lekin koyi fayda nahi hua.main class ke andar aa chuaka tha,class me ek danav ke saman teacher apne hath me pen liye attandance le raha tha...mujhe dekha ,toh andar aane ka ishara kiya mere pichhe -pichhe shweta bhi aa gayi..hum dono ek hi bench pe baithe the...jab ek do class khali gayi toh maine notice kiya ki sabhi humari bench ki taraf dekh rahe hai,mai samajh gaya ki kyo....class khatam hui toh mujhe chain mila ki chalo ye english ke kriya karam se toh pichha chhuta..shweta ne anjane me hi mere hath pe apne hath rakh diya..mai chahta toh wo hath hata sakta tha..aur ek sarif ladke ki tarah shweta se nivedan kar sakta tha ki bahanji aap aisa dobara mat kijiye ,lekin mai sarif nahi tha..aisa maine us vaqt apne aap ko maan liya..uska hath abhi bhi mere hath pe rakha hua tha..bahut der baad jab use mahsoos hua toh usne apna hath hata liya....hum dono canteen gaye..waha se karib sham ko 5 baje mai apne kamre me pahuncha...ab mujhe koyi darr nahi tha..maine ek cigrette mu me dabaya aur usse apni dhushmani nikalne laga..phhir dusara aur kuch der baad teesara...meri adatbahut kharab ho chuki thi ..mai khali time me yahi kaam karta tha..jab paise hote toh cigrette ki dibbi mere pass padi rahti hamesha..lekin ye nahi maloom tha ki yahi adat meri zindagi ka dushman ban jayegi....kuch dino ke baad wo nahi dikhi..ek din mai canteen se aa raha tha toh use jate hue dekha..uske pichhe kayi ladke pade the...tabhi ek ne pichhe se dhakka tak maar diya.use.mujhe na jane kya ho gaya yadi wahi ladkg mujhe dhakkamarta toh mai kabhi replay nah deta,aur gandhiji ke sidhanto pe chalte hue apna dusara gaal bhi aage kar deta.lekin maine aisa nahi kiya.main aage badha ..lekin kyu,aur kiske liye mujhe nahi pata..aur maine gandhi ji ki jagah Lal Bahadur Shastri ke sidhanto pe kaam karte hue maine us ladke ko pakda aurdoor dhakel diya...filmo me aksar ye hota hai ladki ko gunde chhedte hai hero aata hai aurgunde patli gali se nikal lete hai...lekin real life me sabhi majboot dil wale hote hai bhagta koyi nahi.ya toh maar kha jate hai,ya maar dete hai...main maar khane walo me setha..us din un ladko ne bhi Lal Bahadur Shastri ko follow kiya aur mujhe bahut maara ....
mera hotho pe phhir kadwahat hone lagi aur mai apni ateet ki duniya se wapas aaya...aur maine is baar ladki ke ghar ki tarafmuda.uske ghar ki light abhi bhi jal rahi thi.lekin hal chal pahle ki tarah na ke barabarhi tthi...aaj itne salo baad shweta ki bahut yaad aa rahi thi..jis ghar me ladki ki maut huithi ..usi ghar me pahle shweta aur uski family rahti thi aur main abhi tak is ghar me hu iska ekmatra karan bhi ,shweta ka ghar hai.us din maar khane ke baad mai bahut dino tak college nahi gaya...ek din sham ko mere darwaje pe dastak hui ..main utha aur darwaje ko khola..samne shweta khadi thi...maine usko andar aane ke liye nahi bola,lekin wo andar aa gayi..aur mere kamre me padi ek kurshi pe rani sahiba jaise baith gayi...
tumhara hath kaisa hai,usne puchha
"ab thik hai"...maine jawab diya..us vaqt mere pass aisa kuch nahi tha ki mai use khane ke liye dekar paani uske saamne rakh du...lekin wo bahut der tak baithi rahi jisse main ye jaan gaya tha ki wo yaha khane nahiaayi hai .karib do ghante baad wo waha se chali gayi...ab wo aksar aane lagei,teen din me ek baar toh aa hi jati ,mera haal puchhne ke bahane ,jabki us ghatna ko do mahine gujar chuke the...use shayad mujhse baat karna achchha lagta tha..lekin mujhe usse baat nahi karna chahiye tha ,,lekin aisa nahi hua...main bhi uske sath khul gaya..ab hum dono dost ban gay the...abhi humari dosti aage bhi badhne wali thi ki beech me exam aa gaye aur humare rishte ki gadi ko rok diya..thik usi tarah jaise road me bana breaker ek speed vahan ko rok deta hai,ab aap gadi ko dheere karo ya phhir accident kara lo...maine gadi dheere karne ka nirnay liya..jaise jaise exam najdeek aa raha the ,womujhse bahut kam mil rahi thi..aur pichhale do hafto se toh aayi bhi nahit thi...tabhi raju ne awaj diya ,khana ban gaya hai ,khana khalo...main neeche ki taraf chal pada ...aur ek baar mere pair ladke ke ghar ke samne ruk gaye. ,us ghar ki light abhi bhi band thi,kyu band thi ye mujhe abhi bhi nahi maloom tha......continue......
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